Okay, on my way to Naples today I picked up a book that had been recommended by a friend as the "cool" book about pregnancy. Mind you, it was a great book that realistically addressed all of the nitty gritty stuff about pregnancy; however, NOT ONE TIME did it address the dynamics of single pregnancy. There are countless tomes about teenage pregnancy, and that is about the extent to which it is addressed. Now, I am oversimplifying of course. There are some articles that I found about strong successful women who found out they had irresponsibly gotten knocked up and by the grace of God, their barren sister who had been trying for years with her devoted husband to conceive was available to pop right up, adopt the baby and the strong successful woman was able to proceed with her power career and her beautiful single life!
Ugh!
And here I am, a single woman who conceived a baby with a beautifully intelligent man who was not a match for me romantically. One dance in the sheets...he has ALWAYS wanted children, one of the issues presented in the decision to date or not date. Myself? Wasn't really part of my plan. I always said, not only did the world have plenty of children, but that I was JUST FINE surrounded by friends and the little family that I did have. My parents, as well as many of the men I have dated, are all about the buns in the oven. Aren't I supposed to be more excited about this than he is?? I had to step back, and in my gruff coldness that has erupted out of the "diagnosis", recognize that this is a lifelong dream and aspiration of his; and while it has never been one of mine, seems at this particular juncture, I ain't got much of a choice.
So....when....eventually.....I come all of the way out of the closet with the alien invasion, I hope that I can take some single women along for the journey and perhaps make this whole thing more bearable. Of course right now I am writing for myself and the trickle of friends that I gradually let in as time goes on...
OH, and by the way...I have been hearing all of this information about how you can't get acrylic nails during pregnancy...well, guess what, it's not true. Some say it's the solvents (there is no WAY that you can inhale enough harmful solvents to do any damage during one or 21 manicures), others have said it's sensitivity to the smell, which, I am sure time will tell in my case. The GREAT news is that there is not a single study that I can find that shows I can't go get my damn nails done! Yippeee!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
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